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Tuesday, 02 June 2009

  • EXACTLY 1 year ago

    It's her birthday...

    I remember it like it was yesterday... and not yesteryear...

    I go to her house around 12:30 to pick her up for a pampering... I take her out and get her a manicure... french press to be exact... if I had a bit more cash that day, I would have given her a pedicure as well... and spent the whole day walking the mall as her nails dried and the manicure formula set it...

    Then took her to her favorite restaurant with her father... made sure she didn't spend a single penny on her food since it was her birthday... it was a joy... though I had to be insistent since she felt like she had to pay... so I basically forced her to put her purse away and keep her change... it was her birthday... you shouldn't have to pay for food on your birthday...

    then we went back to her place and walked the neighborhood and laid underneath the summer sky watching the clouds roll before it became a thunderstorm...

    The day ended with us watching Ace of Cakes before I left her house and wished her a happy 21st...

     

    One year later... without her... and I'm working my freakin dead end job that I requested off on this day... funny how 365 days can change a single event and in hindsight... what a difference that one year is like...  and it still sucks that I can't celebrate her birthday on this day...

Friday, 29 May 2009

  • Ignant...

    People who seriously claim with all sincerity that the Bible is just some archaic collection of man-made words compiled by people and is therefore something to read for pleasure, good stories, or even to be placed aside and ignored... these people i would ask if they sincerely read the entire Book from cover to cover...

    Much of the people who claim to have read this have never even flipped it open much less began to diligently read it for what it says itself...

    And what is sincerely funny is that such people claim to know that the Bible is not worth are those who either take everything written out of context, or never really opened it...

    And yet, there are so many words and statements in Scripture than can explain many many things...

    From the ills of human society and where these ills originate from... to the medical understandings... to the meaning of life... to even how to have a very satisfying and very passionate marital sex life...

    Let me elude to the last point

    Addressing to those who claim that the Bible has nothing for you... may I point you to the book of Song of Solomon

    This particular book is a collection of poetic writings between a husband and his wife... we catch intimate glimpses of their meeting, courtship, marriage, honeymoon, and interaction between the two... it's intense, erotic, passionate, sexual, poetic, and just a depository of love poems... and very VERY relevant... its an erotic poem collection par excellance...

    In this book, we literally see them have sex twice in this book... she also does a striptease for him (which I never knew till a few months after studying this book)... there are allusions of oral sex (YES IN MARRIAGE)... and basically we get prescriptions and descriptions...

    We also get wisdom points in this book...

    - husbands in order to get a lil sumsum from their wives, be verbally generous to her... encourage her to help her overcome her insecurities, talk to her alot, speak well of her, pour forth speech of love and kindness to her...
    - wives in order to get a lil sumsum from your husbands, be visually generous to him... let him see you... lights are on... doors are open when you're bathing or changing...
    - be on each other's team
    - make love and make love often and alot with each other in your marriage
    - don't have sex till you're married because that's the only time where it's in the right context
    - if you sin against each other (which will happen): repent, talk it through, work it out, forgive each other, and start back up again
    - dudes need to get jobs and supply a house for her to come home to... and NOT to mama
    - if you have passion as a woman in your marriage, that's good and you should act on it...
    - don't deprive each other
    - if you got an idea involving your spouse, DO IT... no matter how crazy it is and just so long as it's not sinful or it breaks the law
    - fellas need to love just one woman and be passionate about her no matter what
    - gals need to be walls where noone can enter in than a door (if that makes sense)
    - husbands need to long for their wives
    - wives need to love for their husbands
    - daddys need to contribute to the protection, growth, support, and education of their daughters in helping them navigate the perversity of the culture and the sinfulness of little boys who want to do nothing more than to ravage and ruin the treasures that their daughters are...

    if these aren't applicable to life today... I don't know what is...

    again... people who claim the Bible has nothing relevant for our lives today either have never read it or are just completely and totally and grossly misinformed...

    Ignant I tell you...

Thursday, 28 May 2009

Monday, 25 May 2009

  • It's not about what but it's about what

    When I hear people say things like, "If God were to tell you that in some odd years you would be doing this or you will be doing that." or "Would you really want God to tell you everything?"

    As if somehow, I wouldn't believe it.

    For me... that's not the case anymore... I really don't care WHAT God tells me to do... Whatever it is... I just wanna do it.

    For me... belief isn't the matter for me anymore than obedience is.

    With Abram for example.  It wasn't the fact that God told him to go.  It was the blatant fact that God TOLD him... re-read the story.

    God comes to Abram one day and says, "Abe... pack up your things and all your family and leave Ur and go in that general direction." and Abram was like, "Ok..."  God never gave him a specific location to set up tent... it was just go... and many Christians would say that Abram believed God.

    Problem with their partial understanding is that GOD FLAT OUT SHOWED HIMSELF AND MADE IT AUDIBLY CLEAR to pack up and leave... and anyone who is a pagan from a pagan nation and God shows Himself to that person and makes what He wants clear to that person... who wouldn't take God at His Word right?  If He made it clear to them... at least for me... i would totally believe God...

    Problem is... we don't get that clear audible from God...

    For me... i would much rather hear from God and have Him say, "Do this..." or "Go there..." or "You'll be doing this."

    It's not what or where for me... it's what and where...

    I would rather have Him tell me SO that I can do it...

    For me... I don't know what faith looks like... and i'm tired of having what I think is a step of faith to be a step in the wrong direction... i've had that happen plenty of times and I'm just sick and tired of faith filled failures... one can only take so much Divine denial before a disgruntled heart sets in... and or rather than being disgruntled... the faith to move mountians shrinks to faith to lift your leg in the morning rather than faith to move the Rockies to the Pacific...

    So I'm currently in the mode of, "God freakin tell me and I'll do it..."

Thursday, 21 May 2009

  • Abortion=Child sacrifice

    "Child sacrifice?!" you say... "We are a modern civilization with science and technology... we would never subscribe to such an archaic and ridiculous notion... you are a fool and thus need to be eliminated!!!"

    Well... maybe not the last part... but if you allow me to take an excerses into history...

    Those "archaic" times is best where we will see many of the things we now hold and attest to... and maybe hopefully learn some things and gain wisdom and knowledge either by observing mistakes so as not to repeat them... or gain a foundation in hopes of building upon said foundation...

    Obviously it sounds rather foolish to suggest that our modernistic times would ever suggest that we heartless cruel child sacrificers...

    In those days... citizens of a nation who worshipped a deity would offer a sacrifice in hopes that the deity would be appeased and grant the worshipper the request in which the sacrifice was given for.  So everyone from farmers and slaves to government officials and higher class citizens all take part in those sacrifices.

    The problem of such is that the deity requires the sacrifice of a child.  A practice widely and commonly used in the ancient world... and any nation that does things differently would evenutally follow suit.

    For example... a Canaanite religion had a god statue named Molech... this deity was in charge of fertility and rain... yes fertility... both in harvest and in the womb.  This statue was a gnarled beastly phallically "endowed" human-type image who held his hands out as if he would be receiving something.  When the time came for the offering season, the priests of this god would heat up the hands of Molech till they were white hot.  The worshipper would then uncover the baby, offer a prayer, hand the child to the priest, the priest would say a prayer, then place the child upon the white hot hands of this deity.  Can you imagine the screams of the child as it baked and broiled to death?  Drums were beaten and loud incessant repeated chanting would then ensue drowning out the cries of the helpless baby as it died almost instantaneously.  All in the name of what?  A good harvest season?  For the wife to have more kids and be sexually charged to have said kids?  A great financial status?  The answer is yes to all those...

    Philistines, Canaanites, Midianites... all of them were the same... this was just worship practices... apparently Canaanite sexual practices were so beyond disgusting that people wouldn't publish their archeological findings they were so horrid and misplaced... but I digress...

    All in the name of obtaining and attaining something would these children be offered into the hands of a diety who will do nothing but sit there, grin its evil grin, and stare out into the world their eyes were carved into place...

    so how is that abortion?

    Isn't it funny?  In the name of comfort... convenience... my life ruined... we abort babies. 

    The god of comfort wants you to offer your child because carrying around a baby for 9 months would be uncomfortable and you don't want that... you want to ease into your life... so abort it...

    The god of convenience wants you to have no hardships and a baby will be one more expense, one more mouth to feed, one more burden you really should bother with... so abort it...

    The god of yourself doesn't want it period... so abort it...

    In the name of self, comfort, convenience... abortion offers a child sacrifice to these gods... the worshippers are the aborters... the priests wear white with stethoscopes and pliers and scalpels, and the deity is Comfort, Convenience, and Selfishness... a trinity of evil and irresponsibility...

    Just like in the archaic times... babies were offered because the worshipper wants better crops, a sexually charged woman for a spouse, a better financial portfolio, more for me...

    Today's modern times... babies are offered because the worshipper wants a more comfortable life, a more convenient life, one less mouth to feed, and more for me...

     

    you make the call...

leadworshipper82

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    • Name: Eugene
    • Birthday: 11/2/1982
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  • I'm an asian guy who loves Jesus, who loves His Word, loves His church and anything I can do to make the Kingdom of God come and be an avenue for His Will be done. I love His Fame and desire to make my life a life where Jesus is known and where He is to be known among all peoples... I hate religion... i despise Christianese... i hate personal experience as the law for living... i hate statistics... i hate opinions as the equation for living... i utterly despise Christians who take their cues from culture rather than Scripture...

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  • haven't pulsed in a bit... still want her... but wonders how to move on when she's still so prevalent?  sumthin Divine please...
  • God i'm still here... the same place I was in... can you do something?  I want her still... sigh...
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  • doral
    I probably could say more, but I don't think it would get us anywhere. I will leave you with your thoughts. We are on the same side are we not? We just understand things differently. God bless you.
    • Posted 8/13/2008 2:53 AM
    • by doral
  • doral
    Further to my reply to your comment, the permissive will of God is when you do something like changing jobs, moving to a different place, changing churches etc without consulting God about it. In some of these circumstances He will allow you do it so that He can teach you something through it. At ot
    • Posted 8/13/2008 12:41 AM
    • by doral
  • leadworshipper82
    @doral - which is permissed by God is it not?
  • doral
    If you have sought God about for instance, who you should marry, or to lead you to the job that He wants for you, then, if you have heard Him correctly, you would be in the perfect will of God for that part of your life. As for what you wear, eat or buy etc. that is simply your choice.
    • Posted 8/13/2008 12:22 AM
    • by doral
  • leadworshipper82
    @doral - God's perfect will is such like he wills that we come to faith in Christ... or that we are to go preach the Gospel and teach and make disciples... his permissive will is like that of marrying a person, a job you take, the jeans you wear, the call you take... that you are under his permissio
  • doral
    @leadworshipper82 - Well how do you understand the perfect will and the permissive will of God, I would be interested to know your feeling? Thanks for the reply though.
    • Posted 8/12/2008 6:36 PM
    • by doral
  • leadworshipper82
    @doral - ummm... i guess you and I are diverted on what we mean by permissive and perfect will then...
  • doral
    Yes, I know what you mean by feeling unused. I guess it depends on what you consider being 'used of God means'. I know that I had my own ideas of how I would like to be used of God. At this point it seems that God has different ideas of how He wants to use me. As far as being in God's will is conc
    • Posted 8/12/2008 8:38 AM
    • by doral
  • leadworshipper82
    @dorothy60@xanga - ummm... thank you...
  • dorothy60@xanga
    Hi Eugene, Here is something to reflect on. As I Reflect. As I reflect on the work of God, As I look back over time passed by. I see His gentle, guiding hand - In so many instances now gone by. I see the times I tried to change His mind...... By creating what I thought I needed. Each effort came to